I've really been trying my best to accept and be happy for Lexi's decision to go to Campbell, but we have fought a lot about this. Mostly, it's my fault, but we currently aren't talking right now. I'm trying to face this conflict with humility, but think about it: if you were in my situation, would you be humble? I can almost guarantee you wouldn't because it isn't that easy. To watch someone else live out your dream is really hard, no matter what stage of life you are in. I have to let myself be happy about MY own decision to go to UNCW. I feel like if I can do that, I can in turn be happy for Lexi and her decision to go to Campbell. It's easier said than done.
Plus, I don't even think she feels bad about me not being able to go there. It just seems like to me that she hasn't even given it any thought. That's what hurts my feelings the most. Am I wrong for that? Probably. Am I being humble? No. But she's not going to understand. That's why I haven't even
tried to talk to her. Maybe I will though.
Maybe that's what we both need.
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